WHY CAN HE PLAY LIKE THAT BUT I COULDN'T?

This brilliant live performance of another Chopin prelude also expresses how I feel at the moment: frustrated, sad, angry.

Matei Varga - Chopin Prelude op. 28, no. 24


I wish I could feel like this instead (like I did 2 years ago).

Claudio Arrau Chopin Prelude Op 28 No 17 In A Flat (1950)