YET ANOTHER THOUGHT FOR T'DAY ON ANGER AND HATRED

You think you're mates. Not best mates, or christmas card list mates. You even share a joke about teachers swinging. But at the same time you also try to convey to your mate how the world works, but are not asked a single question about, or observe any interest shown by your 'mate' in, how the world works. It's not a powerful friendship. A text or two per week. That's all.

But then one day...silence.

You text.

You email.

But nothing.

But despite all this you provide your 'mate' with further details on how the world really works, expecting that with all the detailed information at your 'mates' fingertips that they would want to apologise (that would have been accepted then but not now), maybe even offer to help. But still, nothing. Silence.

So you leave it a few months, because your 'mate' might not have digested all the information, and then after a few months you then ask if they want to help. But still, nothing.

Nothing at all. No thanks. No offers of help. No apologies.

Nothing.

I had not done anything to deserve this treatment, which I believe falls under the description of being treated like shit.

But it gets worse.

Over the next 9 months you then ask your 'mate' to look deep inside to see how they might be able to help. I know how they could help.

But still nothing.

And what had I done to deserve this? I tried to tell my 'mate' how the world really works, and sent her several detailed reports, with some references but with a lot removed (I couldn't trust her). I sent those reports in July and August 2013. For the next year I pleaded and begged for her to offer to help me in my quest. But still nothing.

So I begin to figure there is something not right about this. All that information and no reaction? So I begin to think that maybe that the heart of my 'mate' is actually colder and tougher than I first thought. So I begin to change my attitude and approach. After over 18 months of no questions at all, I try to provoke a reaction by not being the Mr Nice Guy that I had been, all the while telling my 'mate' to tell me to fuck off if they don't like it. But still, nothing. No "fuck off". No offers of help. Nothing.

Now, I strongly suspect that instead of offering to help, that former 'mate' of mine has been sending all the reports and all the emails to everyone, which I am very, very pissed off about. All I was trying to do was shake her out of her apathy. That is all. She has knowledge that I need. I tried being Mr Nice Guy and telling her, sending her information even after she probably thought I was a useless boring old fart and had refused to reply to my texts and emails.

And what do I get in return?

Two years she has had those reports. Twenty months I have been asking for her help. And what do I get?

Ostracised. Maybe even a PI looking into my life. Maybe my emails hacked.

What would that say?

Why don't you stick it all on the internet, eh?

What would have you gained then, you sickos?

Instead of offering to help years ago and helping to stick a stake in to the heart of the vampire establishment that engineers world wars and global financial crises that lead to death, starvation and destruction?